Reflections ~ Release and Surrender

Today is January 12, 2016. My message today is "release and surrender". This has definitely been a theme in my life lately and I am grateful for it. Releasing the things that we absorb, subconsciously and energetically. From other peoples opinions and ideas to the expectations and pre-developed belief systems of society. What is YOU and what is not. I had gotten into the really bad habit of believing that other peoples opinions about my relationship with God was the same as GODS opinion of my relationship with Him. I let fear replace faith and it was restricting and limiting and self abusive. I release that. I have faith that it is God who is leading me on my narrow path and calling me to places that are unacceptable to preconceived beliefs. I also surrender the need to judge others based on my journey and limited understanding. I have faith that it is God who is leading them on their journey, no matter where they are or how they express it.

The Jews say a daily prayer called the shema, part of this prayer is the affirmation "God is One". I choose faith in this, that God is one, and besides Him there is no other god because He is Oneness. Which simply means that all events and circumstances work together for my good, how could they not when God is all there is. So I release fear.

I surrender control and allow others to help me. I am releasing my need to be strong and embracing my vulnerability. I am willing to become the student and truly learn who I am and trust my teachers with my vulnerability. This is not easy for me but I am in my mind most of the time and need to live from my heart, because what is knowledge without love? meaningless.

What are you releasing and surrendering on your journey?

Dream - Stop consuming the same old sh*t!!

Sunday morning I woke up disgusted and freaked out. The dream that I just had was symbolically and emotionally intense! My immediate interpretation was based in the fear that I was on the wrong path because the group in the dream was one I was considering joining again. As the day moved on this dream was continually on my mind and I prayed for Holy Spirit to reveal to me the true interpretation and message.

In the dream I was with a spiritual teacher (that I am a fan of but have never met in real life) and we were going to talk to the pastor of a spiritual group that she was affiliated with but not a part of, (this spiritual teacher has a radio program on this groups website). Anyway when we got to his house I put my purse down and we started talking. He told me that this group has found a way to great healing by...wait for it....consuming their own feces... that's right, absolutely gross, in the dream I was freaking out! He was going on telling me how great this was and then asked me if I would like to try it and then left the room. The spiritual teacher I was with knew about this groups "practice" and that was why she was not part of the group. I asked her if you had to partake in this to be part of the group and she said yes, then she showed me how they start this practice on infants by putting the feces in their bottles (it was a very emotionally intense scene). We decided to leave before the guy came back. As we got to the car I realized I had forgotten my purse in the house and now I had to sneak back in, get it, and sneak back out. I succeeded.

It was the middle of the day when Holy Spirit showed me the truth about what the purse represented and it unlocked the whole meaning of the dream for me. The purse was representing (in this dream) my personal identity. It was then that I realized that "who" the group was in the dream was irrelevant because any group, spiritual or otherwise, can be represented here(which is why I didn't name the group). The symbology is that any group of people who have a set doctrine that they must follow to be considered part of the group (diets, politic, theology, ideology) regurgitate and consume the same old "shit" and lose their personal identity to conform to the group. Even more disturbing was the visual of how children are fed this, instead of guided to find truth, from infancy.

The message to me (and you!) - Learn, seek, ask, question, study but do NOT leave your personal identity behind.

Its really all about walking your path and your personal relationship with God, not about other peoples opinions of your relationship with God. personal identity, personal development, faith in the voice of God to follow where He is leading. So today I leave you with the question, what are you feeding your spirit with?